A pause

I seem to post these entries every now and then and I wish to god I could figure out why it

happens.  I've not been to the gym now since Friday 31/5 and my motivation to do so is absolutely zero, and I have no idea why.  I'm tired 24/7 at the moment, physically and mentally and I don't know why.

Noticing a common theme?  I have no idea why things are happening or why I am feeling the way I do.

I've had a bad week this week in general.  The diet has gone right out the window, with chinese food on Wednesday, drinks/partying until 6am on Thursday, chinese food again on Friday, then no small amount of chocolate consumed on Saturday.  I'm on course for a 2lb gain this week, I'm quite sure of it.

I just feel so tired and physically exhausted every waking minute of the day right now and I can't shift it.  I picked up my bike from the office on Sunday to try and do something with my day and just rode and rode, ended up doing a rather tiring 10km ride.  Even that though was extreme effort, and I struggled to finish it, essentially crawling for the last 2km or so.

I'm going to the gym in around an hour, if it kills me.  I'm going, and I'm hoping that once I get a sweat on it'll kick in and get that good vibe going again.